The Frozen Desire

The Frozen Desire 

This is story of Julie who became crazy, as her boy friend left unkindly. All desires she dreamt  were frozen unkindly.Everything vanished in fog.One person recognised condition and gave shelter to her life.

             This story has shaped in the life of one friend at California. The story presented here in his own words.
         I was in California in 2007. The sky was cloudy & seems to be stormy. I was just in hurry to reach my house. Suddenly someone dashed me. It was a lady aging around 25 years. She angrily saw me and stared at me for a moment. Some rain sprinkles were spread on her face. Her clothes were dirty and seems to be like beggar. Her eyes were coffee brown & penetrating. Her face slowly changed from anger to shy smiley and questioning  as if she wants to express something and recognizing me. She was not able to remove her sight.

             She uttered " Are you Jussis, Jackson ? I am here looking for you since many years. I am Julie” . I replied “Sorry madam, you misunderstood me". She disappointed and tears gathered in her eyes. She wept and held me in her arms "You still speaking lie. I have lost my everything for you" and she crumbled down with despair.  She was murmuring some song or like prayer . She was  a mad  & seems to be shocking effects on her mind. Tears were falling from her greedy face . I astonished & could not judge easily. I thought she became mad for Jackson. She continue murmuring little song

         

Thorny Crown

Oh flower you trust me

 Jussis  still loves  me

Never he left alone 

 Inner heart tuned me along

He has ever pure heart  that I know,

 no one can apart us

I found my Jussis in the era

 of hills of California

Trees and forest showed the

 Thorny path

World around said me,

 mad and something

No one heard my sad soul sobbing

Search now has finished

On the shoulder of Thorny crown

                                         Musafeer

        Her love towards Jackson brought tears in my eyes. Suddenly I decided to help her as possible. I lifted her in my arms. She became unconscious. She looks very beautiful with golden hair. Now her face was calm and worriless. Her lips were just engraved convexly and as if fixed in between two half apple cheeks. The nose  just flower bud.  Her neck was more attractive without garland. I walked towards hotel that was Coffee house. She was very beautiful . She put arm around my neck & hold me in sleepy eyelid. Her breathing & murmuring feels as if whispering in my ears. I unknowingly got full of emotions against the situation and her warmth brought me closer & closer to my soul.

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               I rest her in the chair and sprinkled water on her face. She awake slowly and remembered all the things happened. She called in deep drawn voice,” Jussis, Where were you?”.On seeing me, she put her head on my shoulder and thrown out all sad moments of her life. she was sobbing constantly. I made her calm and assured her  to make her relax . Her breath was making me very uneasy and she was lovingly rubbing her cheeks along my shirt feeling me uncomfortable. She was feeling me Jussis. Her tears were rolling down from her cheeks to my pocket then heart. And uncontrolled sobs thrashed me

Oh my heart
how can you bear
so long awaiting tears
those consist deep pain
ruin me in its chainyour whimper may burst
from unbearable thrust
my humanity melted down
please hold me
from her weeping sound
oh God ,
why I am so unkind
where I lost sympathy
please guide me
to hold her & her life

 

Her sight continuously following me from top to bottom. Her palm was silently moving from head to back. She was quenching her long thrust of affectionate love from soul. I could not resist her as it was real and pure. The customers in Coffee Cottage were looking at me as if …..

            I catered her coffee with my own hands. I urged her " Julie, I realized your true love. I am the most cruel man in this world never seen" and hold her face. She sobbed " No Juussis, I know You are so soft hearted and always kind. Hence I am alive still." I realized her deep feelings towards Jackson  and increased respect about her. I felt, the love of my previous birth appeared to be in vision which was beyond the foggy dream.

This is story of julie who became mad, as her boy friend left unkindly. One person recognized the condition and gave shelter to her life.

 

         And I married her with all her qualities. Some emotional and sentiment effect still reside in her mind. But her heart is so pure and affectionate. Now she is well and follows echoes of my mind. Her eyes taken a loving color from coffee which tends to take energetic coffee every evening in Coffee Cottage. Then we use to sit beneath the mango tree nearby. She gives pretty smile looking in at the bottom my heart.  As she smiles, the corner of lips push the cheeks forming in apple, stretched inwards at the dimple. I become helpless and losing all energy of coffee taken.